北極圈的冰冷世界

It is my birthday! No flowers because I live in the Arctic. No birthday cake because there’s no bakery here. So, I’m trying something different tonight. I’m getting a little bit of inspiration to just write.

I love my husband, and I have no earthly idea what I would do without him, but sometimes he doesn’t know everything about me; it’s really hard because we come from different cultures, and my feeling is that I can tell him everything, but sometimes he doesn’t understand what I mean. Because my appalling English that I’ve been misunderstood too many times, and I’ve learned to just keep it all in.

I’ve learned a lot this last year, who I am, who I want to be, what I want out of life, what my deepest fears are, what makes me so happy, and who I am in Christ. There are still a ton of things that I have yet to learn, and for me, life is constantly showing me that I don’t know everything. I’m still learning. I’m still learning how to be a better person. And how to be a better wife, and how to be a better daughter. None of us are perfect, and we’re trying, constantly trying and struggling to make sense out of this crazy world. We’re expected to know exactly who we are and who we want to be, and what we want out of life. We’re expected to know whether we want that owner’s house with the green garden or how many kids we want (but too bad I am too old).

Last, but not least to my wonderful husband, thank you so much for supporting me and loving me everyday. I’m so blessed to have such an amazing partner who really cares about me. I am so blessed to have such a wonderful family that has molded me into the person that I am, and I love you so much. You have been my light in times of darkness. 

So, It will be a happy day every day not only on my birthday!

三月二十八日是我的生日，沒有鮮花因為我住在北極地帶、沒有生日蛋糕因為這裡沒有烘培店(除非我親自手做蛋糕)，所以，我想嘗試不同的與您分享一些小小的靈感。

我深愛我的先生，而且在塵世上不能沒有他，但是有時候他不了解我，每次當我想告訴他我的感受時，因為我們來自不同的國度與文化背景，又因為我的破英文，錯失了很多機會，往往不得而解，所以就打住了。

在去年我已經學會了如何認知自己、想要成為什麼樣的人，什麼樣的生活，如何克服內心深層的恐懼、如何使自己快樂，並且很清楚地我活在主基督裡。還有很多事情我仍在學習，生活在混亂的世界是一連串不斷地嘗試與奮鬥，我仍然學習如何成為更好的人、如何成為好女兒、如何成為好妻子，沒有人是完美的，我們期許自己想要的生活、期許擁有自己的房子、期許婚後有幾個子女想要。這些都是我們致力努力不懈的動力。

最後，對我的極好的先生至上我最深的感謝，非常感謝你每天愛我與支持。 我是如此備受祝福有這麼一位真正地關心我的了不起好伴侶。也因有美好的家庭的恩典鑄造了如此的我。我是如此地深愛你，當我在黑暗時刻時你及時成為我的亮光。

所以，每天都是快樂的日子，不僅只是生日的當天！